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Perspectives - Vol. 4, No. 4 - Poems and Artwork

SylviAnn Murray Updated: Nov 1st 1999

View SylviAnn Murry's artwork at Surreal-Expressionistic ART by S.A. Murray



at 17

I knew too much

too much to contain

it spilled out    the eyeholes

became art    poetry    dance    beauty

too much to contain

but they tried    to box me

and I spilled out    imploded    exploded    escaped

rebuilt

and lived again

chained again and again

I contained myself   imploded    ceased to breathe

tread carefully    stifled exuberance

too much    too much

I would rather    hold my breath

contain half

of too much

than be locked in    forever

   SylviAnn Murray    October 13, 1991  (8:56 AM)



Insanity culminates

a Poet sits    and wonders why

what inspires Insanity    to push on

to piece together lifetimes

to note the sun    the dusk and windfall

Insanity culminates    in a Poet

as she quietly watches

Sanity slip through fingers

and fall clammering    upon a steely floor

   SylviAnn Murray    June 11, 1973  (1:00 pm)


is there hope in the wind

after all has been destroyed

can I find myself real    intact

after the hurricane

has ripped through my soul    broken my heart    ripped out my eyes

after no more tears could fall    but still do

quiet    unbearable

I still remain

is there hope in the wind

there is hope in the rain

   SylviAnn Murray    August 30, 1992  (12:05 pm)


Manic Rainbow

First time I flew    the Manic Rainbow

I told the world everything    I knew I could be    and thought I already was    though no one could see

Declared me "Crazy"    for believing in myself    too much

Tied me down    left me Alone    to despair

Convicted me of a "crime"    called Insanity

they said -   there is No Return

   SylviAnn Murray    September 8, 1990  (5:00 pm)


for Vincent

only yesterday

I passed you

on your way to rest

I have come Alive

my soul exploded

upon canvasses

for all to see

and you have finally died

and passed it safely

for me to carry on

yes I was there

with you and still

I have been there

I know insane

but I have come back

to set you Free

you can go home now

to the fields and the sky

we are one

we passed in this life

I will continue your spirit

in this earthly body

together one day

the daisies will dance

upon grave of artists

who can never die

   SylviAnn Murray    April 16, 1991  (1:59 pm)


I am writing

I am writing on glass windows

gazing upward at blue skies

I am writing on the mirror

in invisible ink

staring at blue eyes

I am breaking thru

the barriers

one at a time

smashing into Eternity

I am Alone

and reaching out

become the mirror

falling into blue skies

I reflect the Universe

I am lost

behind glass doors

I will be the Sky

   SylviAnn Murray    December 14,  1994  (6:14 AM)   


Runaway Train

there is that   brief knowledge

that your mind has become    a Runaway Train

then Awareness    a quickening

into and beyond    Insane

there is a merging    into one raindrop

reading Eternity's Pain    in a kitten's cry

the meow of the wild    condensed by the city

wailing to be Free

and then there is You

You are the   Runaway Train

   SylviAnn Murray    July 8, 1989  6:55 AM


  the Gods have wings

yes the Heavens    are above us

yes the Gods have wings

yes there is peace    in the air

yes the birds Know    they know without thoughts

they travel Freely    in random order

their lives make sense   they fly Free

soar and dip    play and smile

yes the Heavens    are above us

and Peace    can be found

harmony and wings

and on the last day    I only want to Fly

   SylviAnn Murray    February 28, 1994  (4:55 AM)


the world    kaleido-scopes

and I shift    comfortable

with the sliding

I see the shadows    moving

knowing they aren't   in our world

glancing around    the corners

no one     should see

feeling    not alone

knowing    the Truth

has layers    not explained

walking    in a Reality    not real

knowing    I am here    for this

somehow    the Message    multi-dimentional

comes    thru my fingers

and will    be Released

   SylviAnn Murray    December 11, 1998  (10:37 pm)


Blue-eyed Child

I am   the untouched

sealed behind steel mirrors

that conceal    mysteriously    the Blue-eyed Child

who cried out   so many times

only to find    her soul    slapped into a corner

her eyes become   the mirror    reflect the beauty    trap the pain

when left    behind    travel the Insane

No-one    could ever find me

so now    we are many    reflections deceive    illusions are plenty

I reflect    the summer day

I feel quickly    every way    I am    an enclosed reflection    bent by many sunlights    SylviAnn Murray    May 28, 1989  (3:24 AM)


Stone-child

I am the stone-child

shedding invisible tears

insides made of glass

broken in many pieces

I am clay

to the ocean's touch

so run in fear

of the water's edge

the salt seeks

out my pain

the feelings intense

I go   Insane

I stand in the sand    briefly

to become the child

I melt into the Ocean

crying out

feeling the pain

to come unglued

to feel the tears

the Ocean washes me away

left on the beach

one child at play

   SylviAnn Murray    June 26, 1993  (5:52 pm)


the Rainbow

sometimes I wonder    who is holding me

then realize    no one ever has

I have swung alone    high and low

sometimes secure    sometimes coming apart    always moving ahead

though sometimes   sometimes    finding the end   of a dark tunned    before glimpsing     the Rainbow

it is the Rainbow    that holds me

sometimes   slipping though    stuck on the pink   or the blue

and with    Rainbow Vision    I see    the White Light

and feel    the Purple Pain

see with    the clarity    of the wise one

sometimes feel   the questions    of the Insane

the Rainbow   may be invisible  to some

but the double circles   wrapped around the moon    are always    mine to keep

   SylviAnn Murray     February 6, 1995  (8:50 pm)


too much   S T U F F

I have too much    STUFF    too much STUFF

It's scary when    it starts    coming out

everytime          I open my mouth    to speak

or pick up a pen   to write    to draw

too much STUFF     but    I have it

and to survive     I have    stuffed it     

killed it          ate it    and spat it out

Now it is          on the walls

of your            very favorite nightspot

I have covered     the white walls

with emotion       that would not

stay stuffed       any longer

with feeling       that fell

screaming out      of this brain

that imploded      so many years

that stuffed it    so many years

Now exploding      out ward

is the only way    to survive

Bright colors      fighting creatures

Images             from other times

I am not           responsible for them

but I did          find the paper

and the colors     That was hard enough

I did hold         myself down

in one space       to let it    all come out

I did release      my own chains   one by one

to allow           subconscious   S C R E A M S

to emerge          to build   to come forth

I have put         my   S O U L

on the white       and yellow walls

I    A M           A L I V E

if you will        take   the time

to    stop         and    look

I    D I D         S U R V I V E

and   I    A M     here now seeking    Humanity

who need to        cover walls    of black   of white

to cover           empty walls

from many years    of pushing   the colors inside

I am here...       Are you   A L I V E ?

   SylviAnn Murray (1991)

All Poems And Artwork Copyright (c) 1999, SylviAnn Murray.

Reference:
Murry, SylviAnn (1999). Poems and Artwork. [Online]. Perspectives. [1999, November 1].

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